Good News, Bad News

Good NEWS: My job has asked me to start working FULL-TIME, starting this Monday. They wanted be to start yesterday, but I needed time to digest all this. And this is a mixed bag for me, I knew it was possible when I interviewed for the job, they did tell me it would, at some point, go full time. The only thing is, it's not sitting very well with me. My stomach is in knots. I actually called in sick yesterday, but I think that had more to do with some bad chicken than my nerves. I'm feeling a bit out of control since this was hoisted on me, and it has to do with my kids more than anything.

You see, I've been extremely lucky to have a husband who makes a decent buck (side note, his job is still not very secure yet either, no one has bought the refinery yet, and he's still in a limbo state, but still employed), and I've been able to raise our wonderful girls (now in Jr High and High School) only working part time jobs, and perfect ones that would let me be home with them after school.

The thing is, most folks I know would've loved to have had what I had, so I feel like a big ole baby worrying about how I'm gonna handle the change. It's certainly not the actual work part, I do love the company. It's my kids. These are the years they really don't need me as much, but at the same time, they may start getting into mischief when I'm not home.

I also have the questions of how the heck can I get it all done. Again, all the other parents who both work and raise a family, aren't gonna give me any sympathy here. And I don't want it, I just want to know, HOW THE HELL DO YOU DO IT ALL? Cooking, laundry, cleaning, oh, and my dog...I forgot about her. I usually walk her every morning, I don't know how I'm gonna squeeze that in too.

Back to the job, the funny thing is, I asked my company for more money if they wanted me to go full time. They said I would be getting more, since I would be working an extra 10 more hours a weeks. Whoopdedoo. I wasn't thrilled about that either. Our company has a frozen limit on raises of a whopping 3% and my year review is in February, so I'm not gonna be thrill to get an extremely small raise either. But in this economy, I'm freaking lucky to even have a job.

One thing is for sure, I'm getting a gardener who not only cuts the lawn, but does it all. I use to trim the bushes and handle the flower beds, weeding and racking. Nope, not gonna do that anymore, I won't have time, besides I'm just feeling to old to do that anymore.

Okay, now the BAD NEWS, this may very well be my last post. You guys know I don't post that much anymore, since I've started working just part time. The kids hog the laptops when they're home, and I know I've said this before, but I'm on a computer at work all day, and I don't feel like being on one when I get home. So, I bid you all farewell for now. I'll still be lurking, but posts will be far and few between.

Vamp's Worldview OUT.

[EDIT] Oh man, and here's a Scientology fraud case on CNN too, that I don't have time to rant on. I'll just make a comment on the very last line of the article. "I fart in your general direction."